you can't hide your love away

the hipster grifter was spotted at fu-wah a few days ago. or was it josh? i forget. whoever it was, i want to take them in my arms and say, "hey. it's okay. you don't have to do this. it doesn't have to be like this. not tonight. not in west philly." or maybe i want them to do that to me? i forget.

everyone thinks they're so clever when they make up little nicknames for that bar next to the el bar, "KFN", you know which one i'm talking about? like, hey, it's such a stupid name already, why don't i make it even dumber by showing how creative i can be with words. tae-bo bow tie? kung fu teaneck? oh, wow, that's so funneee!

sike! it's not funneee. josh and i agreed on this last night, that's why both of us choose the bar with no nickname. the el boat.

last night at the el beezle, josh played papa roach on the juke box. i commented that it was funny to hear a song like that because i haven't heard that song since i stopped hating my parents four years ago. he looked at me curiously, i think maybe i accidentally wasn't speaking english? has that ever happened to you? it happens to me seriously all the time. also i've been having allergy attacks lately. anyways, there we were, lost in translation at the elk bar. ivanco said hi. shortly thereafter josh played that song by garbage, you know, that one "i'm only happy when it rains". i looked at him and said "seriously, josh, what the hell? you are loco. loco en la cabesa." he got really quiet, like that kind of quiet when you make a joke about something and you don't realize it's actually really offensive to the person you told it to? and they don't know how to tell you? like once i asked someone how fast his dad ran and he started crying and i was like "o shit" and he was like "my dad doesn't have legs" (i'm seriously not making that up that totally happened, massachusetts summer 2004). anyweezie, josh looked at me like that when i said the loco thing and he left the bar shortly thereafter. i felt really weird so i asked the cougar bartender why josh would have been offended by that. cougar looked at me.

"josh has meningitis en la cabesa."


@ the el boo