we all forget things, keys wallets iphone blackberries and diamonds. diamonds on trees looking like niblets of cacooing birds. ive got a box of cookies in front me, and its so cold i feel like im on the boat. im eating stars and diamond trails.
josh don't forget me,
josh forgot to call me last night
don't forget again.
so instead of moping in front of the computer, gossip girls and desperate house lives, instead of smoking herbs, i hit the el bar, windy whindy forgotten streets to the warm safe house.
trotting crack heads.
a young boy tapped me on the should, "the time maam" I looked up from my book: i dunt know im sorry
"whats your name"
i looked up again: sad pony
"whaere you heading miss"
none of your business!
he giggled with his friends
"have you been drinking"
NO! i turned scarlet at his accusation leave me alone, i had to work on a sunday
they giggled sum more. do i really reek of failure? oh holden, oh larry davis,
"will you take me home? miss, can i take you home"
oh josh why didn't you call me back!
failure rides uncertainty. im almost there at the el bar. i can see the familiar PBR cans glimmering through the foggy window.
but when i reach the steps i see only pepsi lite.